These moments are what make my life worth living. My Dad left this world before I could realize this. Before I could express who I was and how I felt without screaming to or running away from it all to get high. I felt my dad around us during the holidays. I know he sees what is happening with us all but I still crave that physical part of having a Dad. I am sure if you lost a parent you know what I mean when I talk about the physical aspect. So this year Joe and I got my Mom a ticket to go see Annie the Musical in Media,PA in January which stars the hilarious Wanda Sykes as Miss Hannigan. Of course Joe and I will be her chaperons. My Niece Abby is 3 years old and is at the perfect age for Christmas. She was so excited for Santa to come this year. This year she was into Toy Story 3 and Batman of all things. So shopping for her was fun. I found myself always picking up things to give her.
On Christmas morning. I woke up at 8am like a little kid excited for Santa's arrival. I remember waking up turning on the coffee maker and then I sat on the couch and turned the TV on. Joe finally got up around 10am. We started opening our gifts around 11am. Joe got me some amazing things this year, a Keurig Coffee Maker, GLEE CD's, Wii games, FCKH8 T-shirt and a Snuggie to name a few. After the gifts were opened we then moved over to our stockings. Where we both found scratch offs and other goodies. I thought I was done then Joe reached down to the bottom of my stocking and handed me one last gift. I unwrapped it and saw a small box. Joe then grabbed it from me and opened it to reveal a beautiful ring. He then knelt on one knee and said " Will you be my forever ?" I was in total shock, this was totally unexpected. I of course looked him in the eyes and said YES followed by a huge kiss.
FCKH8 Campaign, I know one day soon gay marriages will be held throughout the entire United States. As a human being how can we not allow another human being to experience love and commitment. I am just so confused to why it is taking so long. I just hope I live to see it. I am so excited to say that I am engaged. It feels great to know I found someone who is supportive and who unconditionally loves me all of the time. Even at my bitchiest which is sometimes on a daily basis. No date has been set for those who want to know. I am enjoying this new transition in my life and I look forward to sharing it with you as this new journey continues.
The year 2010 is coming to a end very quickly. I have spent the last few days thinking of all things I have experienced and people I have met and new friends I have made over the last year. I am very thankful for them all. In 2011 I will spend more time focused on my activism. I have made a commitment to myself that 2011 will be the year for me and POZIAM. I am ready to speak out more and provide a voice for others who are too ashamed to speak. Too many HIV+ individuals live in shame. I am ready to fight for the rights of those LIVING with HIV/AIDS with everything I have. I know I was placed in these situations because of my own actions but I know there is a bigger plan for me. I have a mission and I am determined to accomplish it. If I continue to surround my self with positive things and people I will gain prosperity.