Saturday, October 30, 2010

November Shows & Guests

November 7th at 9pm EST
Michelle Anderson - One Positive Beauty Queen
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Michelle Anderson 
 Michelle Anderson is an African-American woman who has been living for HIV since 1999. She currently resides in Dallas, Texas and is very active in her community as Co-Chair of Campaign to End AIDS Texas , The Afiya Center Peer Educator , Public Speaker , as well as a board member for AIDS Services of Dallas, and ADAP Advocacy Association where she is the Treasurer. Michelle has dedicated much of her personal life to educating others on HIV/AIDS throughout the greater Dallas area and beyond. She plans to finish her degree in Social Work where she will be able to continue to spread the message, and educate people regarding HIV/AIDS. Michelle is has stepped out of the box and is currently Ms. Duncanville Plus America 2010 and 2011. She plans to use her title to become the voice of positive women of color. Michelle has experience as a group facilitator and has attended many conferences where she received training in Advocacy, Project LEAP (Learning, Empowerment, Advocacy, Participation), and Common Threads.

 November 14th at 9pm EST
Bradford McIntyre - Positively Positive
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Bradford McIntyre
HIV positive Canadian Bradford McIntyre promotes HIV and AIDS awareness and promotes messages of positive living with HIV.A long time survivor living with HIV since 1984, Bradford announced publicly in 1994 that he was living with HIV. "My work creating HIV and AIDS awareness globally has provided for many people, a face living with HIV and this has helped to bring hope to people infected that they too can live!" Bradford has appeared on national television and radio, in numerous newspaper and magazine interviews and documentaries; promoting HIV and AIDS awareness. Along with local, national and international speaking engagements, Bradford's articles on HIV and AIDS have been published in newspapers, magazines and on web sites around the world. Bradford's global impact is shown through a comprehensive, informative website. When you visit his website Positively Positive-Living with HIV/AIDS (www.PositivelyPositive.ca), you will discover a wide variety of life affirming and supportive topics. He collaborates with individuals, groups and organizations throughout the world. Since 1994, whenever possible, Bradford has volunteered his time and energy to participate in HIV and AIDS causes.


 November 21st at 9pm EST 

During this episode of POZIAM RADIO, we will be discussing Meth and HIV/AIDS. Our friends from Tweaker.org will be joining us for the first part of the show to talk about Meth and how it affects our bodies,our sex and our overall lives. Tweaker.org was created because a lot of people make some potentially dangerous choices while we're high on speed. Some of these choices are about the sex we have and our sexual health. With the astonishing rise in new infections in the gay community due to meth use, we felt it was important to dedicate a show to the subject.


The second half of the show we will be joined by Greg Bersani. Greg was diagnosed about a year ago HIV+ and will be courageously sharing his personal story and his journey of  Meth, Recovery and HIV.

No matter how rough it gets, as someone stated before " You never know how strong you are, until strong is all that is left ".. I am ready to start to make a difference in the world - Gregory Bersani





November 28th at 9pm EST


TBA


Sunday, October 24, 2010

My Does HIV Look Like Me? Video

Three years ago I came to a cross roads in my life. I am not sure if it was a mid-life crisis or just me coming to the realization that all human beings have a purpose. At first I wanted to start sharing my story as a speaker. When I was looking for HIV/AIDS organizations to get involved with a google search returned Hope's Voice. I saw that the speakers toured the United States and spoke to high schools and colleges. I instantly thought to myself  "that is what I want to do" I saw they were taking video submissions for a campaign called Does HIV Look Like Me ?  Below is the video I sent in and was chosen as a part of the campaign..I don' think I would be where I am today if I didn't take part in this campaign. Filming this video was my first step towards excepting my status and moving passed the shock of my diagnosis.




In hopes of inspiring,
Robert

Thursday, October 21, 2010

1st-ever ADAP Public Service Announcement

About a month ago I participated in the 1st-ever Public Service Announcement on the AIDS Drug Assistance Programs (ADAP). The PSA was directed by an Emmy-winning producer who filmed the 1st-ever AIDS PSA in the 1980s and Nancy Reagan's "Just Say NO to Drugs" Campaign.ADAP provides life saving medications for uninsured and under-insured people living with HIV/AIDS. As you may of read in a previous blog post,I am a board member for the ADAP Advocacy Association. We work very hard to bring attention to the ever growing ADAP waiting list and hope that one day soon their won't be any waiting lists at all.

When I was first asked me to be apart of this PSA I immediately said yes. I knew it meant I would be traveling to DC on Sunday night and back to Levittown Monday afternoon. So it was a quick but very important trip. Sunday night some of us met at Brandon's place and just hung out. It is so nice to meet others who understand what it is like to live with HIV/AIDS and knows the importance of us taking our life saving medication. We had some great conversations and laughs over Domino's pizza and wine.


Monday morning came early, we all got up early had our coffee and met in the lobby. That was when I saw Bill Arnold, Ann Lefert ,Brandon Macsata, Nick Rhoades, Michelle Anderson and Christine Campbell. Once I saw who was involved in this PSA I was even more nervous about the filming. These people are some of the most powerful and respected people in the HIV/AIDS community. Brandon asking me to be apart of this PSA was truly an honor. After the filming some of us hung out and talked for a bit before I caught my train ride home.When I am hang out and meet other people of like minds and who have similar goals I seem to get recharged or rejuvenated. I become inspired to work harder and become a better activist. I left knowing that I was a part of making history that day.When this PSA hits the airwaves or goes viral, I will let you all know.


Currently the ADAP Waiting list has 3,765 individuals
 in 8 states, as of October 14, 2010.

Florida: 2,110 people
Georgia: 617 people
Iowa: 13 people
Louisiana: 502 people
Montana: 8 people
North Carolina: 52 people
Ohio: 269 people
South Carolina: 194 people

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Philadelphia AIDS Walk 2010

This past Sunday I walked in the Philadelphia AIDS Walk. This is something that I have been committed to doing since I launched POZIAM in 2007. So this walk was my 4th AIDS Walk ever. The night before my team the Philadelphia Falcons had a scrimmage soccer game with the New York Ramblers at Rutgers University in Camden ,NJ. It was great to get out on a full field and play. We played for about 3 hours and had a blast with the Ramblers. I am only telling you about the scrimmage because you would think after playing soccer for 3 hours I would have no energy to walk 8.4 miles the following morning. Well nothing would of stopped me from walking. Not only does it help other living with HIV/AIDS in Philadelphia  but it is a great way to meet local ASO's and get some life saving information.




I got up early on Sunday, I am talking 6am. I took the train into the city with Greg, a fellow POZIAMer. The train ride down to the city we talked and shared stories. It was a great way to start the day of the AIDS walk.  Once we arrived at the Philadelphia Art Museum, where the walk took place we met up with Robert, another POZIAMer and then headed over to the AIDS Quilt. They display panels of the AIDS Quilt every year at the walk. A panel is created in honor of a family member or loved one that have lost their battle with AIDS. 




I love that they alternate the panels around the US so you get to see different ones every year. When I viewed the panels this year I did a lot of thinking. I asked myself a few questions in my head. -Would someone create a panel for me? What would it look like ? Who would create it? I instantly thought of  a family member that passed of AIDS. A 2nd or 3rd cousin of mine. I believe I met him once or twice but I was just a little kid but, I don't really remember it at all. I wish I knew more about him. Maybe one day I will find the courage to ask my family more about him.



          


We started walking around 9am. The complete 8.4 mile walk took us about 2 1/2 hours. It was great to walk with Greg and Robert. We had some great discussions and laughed the whole way. It felt like I hanging with old friends and not 2 people I just met. The 3 of us just clicked. While we were walking and talking I discovered that we had a lot things in common in regards to our pasts.  Good people make good conversations.
Greg - Robert B. - Robert
After the walk the 3 of us were interviewed by Logo about living healthy with HIV. We had planned to do the interviews before the walk so we were all excited about it. We were interviewed by the beautiful Alesha Renee from BET and the fabulous Adam Abernathy ,producer of Logotv.com's HIV+ME, was also producing these interviews. It is alway an honor to be apart of anything media wise that will promote awareness and education. I will do anything to help end the stigma surrounding people with HIV/AIDS. While on the walk I was also able to share the message of Dab the AIDS Bears with others and take some great photos.







 


Every year at the finish line Donna May is there to congratulate all the walkers. Every year I must take a photo with her.  I wanted to personally thank all of the walkers,runner,volunteers and those who donated this past Sunday. The Philadelphia AIDS Walk raised over $350,000 for over 30,000 people in the Delaware Valley living with or affected by HIV/AIDS.

FACTS ABOUT HIV/AIDS AND PHILADELPHIA

• Since 1981, over 600,000 Americans have died of AIDS.
• Every 9 1/2 minutes, someone in the U.S becomes infected with HIV.
• Approximately 20% of people infected with HIV do not know it.
• According to the Philadelphia Department of Public Health, Philadelphians are being infected with HIV at a rate MORE THAN 50% higher than residents of New York City.
• The rate of infection in Philadelphia is FIVE times the national average.
• About half of the 1.2 million people living with HIV in the U.S are not receiving medical care.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Awareness and Awards - Kick HIV Tournament

This past weekend I participated in and volunteered to help with the Kick HIV / Patae el VIH soccer tournament. As I may of mentioned I was really excited to be a part of this tournament. It brings two things that I hold near and dear to my heart (Soccer & HIV Awareness) together in one event. The tournament was on Saturday October 9th which was National Latino AIDS Awareness Day. Since it was NLAAD The event was completely ran in Spanish. It was great even though I don't speak much Spanish. It all took place in South Philly right next to Geno's Steaks. I was craving a cheese steak all day but refuse to stand in a line of 50 people to get one.

The Falcon members that volunteered got up early around 9am to line the fields and set up the goals. The adult tournament started at 11:30am and went on until about 2:30pm. There were a total of 6 co-ed teams and all the teams played at least four 25 minute games. My team , The BLACK Team ,made it to the championship and won the tournament with a record of 5 wins and 1 loss. We played really well together considering the language barrier.. just goes to show you that the language of Soccer is universal.

During the adult tournament SocceRoo, the Philadelphia Kixx mascot, showed up to take photos and entertain the kids. When I first saw SocceRoo show up at the tournament, I ran over to my soccer bag and grabbed my Dab the AIDS Bear to get a photo with him. I am an Ambassador of Hope for Dab The AIDS Bear Project and I try my best to get photo with my Dab while spreading his 29 year message of hope.

After the adult tournament , the kids had their tournament. It was such an amazing feeling seeing those kids running around after the soccer ball. They were having so much fun while their parent and loved ones were being educated about HIV/AIDS .

They also had the option of getting a rapid HIV test and results in 10 minutes by the Mazzoni Center. After I was done playing all my games I took the opportunity to walk around and introduce myself to some of the local ASO's and fellow activists. I even handed out a bunch of condom to my teammates explaining they need to protect themselves first and foremost.The event even had drummers and dancers there to entertain the kids and adults. The sounds of the drums beating and watching the women dance brought a sense of unity to the crowd. It was really an amazing feeling.


The Kick HIV tournament is an event I plan to help out with every year. I wanted to thank the Philadelphia Falcons for being involved with this amazing event. One day we hope it will draw a big crowd like the Philly AIDS WALK.  Which reminds me I am walking in the Philly AIDS Walk this Sunday October 17th , If you would like to donate to my goal and help me help others living with HIV/AIDS in Philadelphia please do so here.





More Photo from Kick HIV
Robert & Dab the AIDS Bear

Falcon Volunteers
Robert getting Gold Medal

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

My Take on Condoms

What can we do to encourage our peers to wear condoms ? We can remind them that HIV doesn’t discriminate, along with other STDs and pregnancy. We must continue to speak on HIV and AIDS and share our stories so others can be educated and not make the same mistakes we did. Social and cultural factors, not  just unavailability or ignorance, influence why young people do not use condoms

Some sexually active people under 25 years of age associate condoms with a lack of trust, while others believe carrying them could imply sexual experience, which might be a plus for men but not necessarily for women. Young people assess a potential partner’s disease risk, and the need for a condom, by their appearance and how well they know them socially.

Programs that merely provide information and condoms, without addressing the crucial social factors identified are only tackling part of the problem. Consistent and correct condom use reduces the risk of HIV infection by 90%. It is something definitely worth learning how to do correctly.


I feel that parents have the biggest role in providing education and access to condoms. Even though parents sometimes find it difficult to talk to their children about sex and condoms, taboo or not, this must be done. What a parents informs the child of at a young age will always stay with them as they grow up into an adult. Parents can’t be afraid to talk about adult topics with teenagers. One small conversation could save your child’s life.

I also feel that schools especially high schools have a big role in teaching students about condoms and safe sex. I remember when I was in high school, we learned about STDs, condoms and sex in one daily lesson. I am not even sure we had one test on it. It was then pushed under the rug and never mentioned again. Maybe that is why I sit where I am today. I feel high schools especially catholic high schools are afraid to talk about sex and condoms. They have an invisible religious line they must never cross. I think it is bull. We are all human beings and need to learn about what will keep us alive. Condoms Saves Lives !

I also feel that politicians could have a big role in giving access to condoms to young people in prison. Sometimes we forget about young people in prison they are human too. Young people who are incarcerated are 3 times more likely to become HIV positive. They have no access to condoms at all. I believe that prisoners should have access to condoms. I understand that sex is not permitted in prisons but, wake up, it a reality. Lots of unprotected sex happens in prison. If it is permitted or not it happens.

Take it from Dab the AIDS Bear ... 
Condoms Saves Lives




Friday, October 8, 2010

Project Runway's Mondo - Talks to POZIAM Radio

Mondo Guerra, the rocking 32-year-old breakout star from the 8th season of Project Runway, turned tear ducts to geysers during a past episode, when he revealed his HIV-positive status. Which was a secret he'd been hiding from his deeply religious family for ten years. Once the sobbing subsided, and Mondo laid claim to his much deserved third win in a row (the first turkey in Project Runway history!), a bigger question loomed in the minds of viewers: How did his deeply religious family take the news when they saw it? And did they watch the big reveal live with the rest of America, or were they prepped beforehand ?

During the challenge the contestants were asked to create a textile pattern inspired by old family photos, evoking "something deeply personal." Guerra created black, yellow and magenta plus-sign print pants, explaining, "The symbolism in the pants are these pluses are positive signs and I've been HIV positive for ten years. When I saw these pictures of my family, it brought back a lot of emotion, so I wanted to pull from the past but also give something back of who I am now."

Join Robert Breining and Jack Mackenroth during this special episode of POZIAM RADIO - Wednesday October 27th at 7pm EST- the night before the Project Runway Finale.

If you have any questions that you would like me to ask Mondo during the interview please post it in the comment section of this blog post


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Kick HIV - National Latino AIDS Awareness Day

Most of you all heard about Grassroot Soccer before. They use the power of soccer to empower and educate African Youth. It would be a dream job for someone like myself. I currently play for the Philadelphia Falcons soccer club and have been playing soccer for over 20+ years. The cool thing about playing soccer with the Philadelphia Falcons is that they are very active with social issues like HIV/AIDS. A few weeks ago I went to my soccer practice and happened to see that there were representatives from Philly Vax who handed out water bottles and other cool merchandise promoting safe sex and information informing us about the trials they are running. It is an amazing feeling to know that my teammates and team are so supportive in the fight against HIV/AIDS>



This year’s National Latino AIDS Awareness Day takes place October 9th, 2010 at Capitolo Recreational Center (1000 Federal St, Philadelphia, PA 19147) with a soccer tournament kicking off at 11am, and a Public Health Fair with free food and HIV testing from 1 to 5 PM. This day is a day in which we seek to raise awareness about the impact that HIV/AIDS is having among Latino communities in Philadelphia.

The HIV/AIDS epidemic is a serious threat to the Hispanic/Latino community. Hispanics/Latinos* comprise 15% of the U.S. population but accounted for 17% of all new HIV infections occurring in the United States in 2006. During the same year, the rate of new HIV infections among Hispanics/Latinos was 2.5 times that of whites. In 2006, HIV/AIDS was the fourth leading cause of death among Hispanic/Latino men and women aged 35–44 (CDC HIV/AIDS Facts HIV/AIDS among Hispanics/Latinos, Updated August 2009.)

In Philadelphia where the overall HIV rate is 5 times the national average there were 2,324 Hispanic persons living with HIV/AIDS in Philadelphia (as of December 31, 2009), that is (12% of all People Living with HIV/AIDS PWHA in Philadelphia), of these almost 30% are female, and 70% are 40 and older.

For seven years now, a coalition of local community based organizations have come together to promote HIV/AIDS awareness and testing among Philadelphia’s Latino Community. Building on the success of previous years, we have reached over thousands through street based outreach, PSAs, as well as through print and radio and our events have reached over 850 people directly This year the coalition has come together to launch the Philadelphia Latino AIDS Action Network (PLAAN) and to promote a local campaign called “Kick HIV”- (“Patea el VIH”) . The campaign seeks to promote HIV/AIDS awareness, education and testing among Latinos in Philadelphia.

This year our focus is on promoting HIV/AIDS awareness among South Philadelphia’s growing Latino community by hosting a series of friendly soccer matches that will help us draw attention to HIV/AIDS as an important health issue. Over thirty community based organizations will be offering information on other health and social issues of importance to Philadelphia’s Latino community as well as promoting diabetes, high blood pressure, and cholesterol screening among others.

If your interested in playing in this tournament you can register here .We hope you will join us on October 9th, 2010!

Futbolito & My first Philadelphia Union Game

This August the Philadelphia Falcons Soccer Club sent 3 teams to participate in the official MLS Futbolito 4 vs. 4 tournament. The Futbolito tournament brought fast-paced soccer action across the country. We traveled to Chester to participate in the day long tournament. The day started bright and early and the Falcons arrived at 8:30am. Each team was made up up of 7 players. We sent 2 men's teams and 1 women's team.. The Falcon men were spilt up into 2 teams, a Spanish speaking team that called themselves Patanegras. The remaining men and the women's team went by the club name Falcons.

The playing field was thirty yards long by twenty yards wide. The goals were four feet high and six feet wide so a lot different then the a pop up net like we use at practice. What made this different from any other tournament was the goal box. The goal box is an arc with a radius of six feet. There was no ball contact allowed within the goal box. However, any player may pass through the goal box. If the ball came to rest in the goal box, a goal kick is awarded regardless of who touched the ball last. If a defender touched the ball in the goal box, a penalty kick is awarded to the offensive team. If an offensive player touched the ball within the goal box, a goal kick is awarded to the defensive team. The goal box eliminated people playing as a goalie the entire match. It was a such a great idea we implemented the goal box in our fall league.



Falcon Men Semi-Finalist



The Falcons men's team finished the first round of games with 3 wins and 0 loses. They entered the quarter-finals undefeated and beat the Killer Kiwis 3-2 to advance to the semi-finals. Unfortunately they lost in the semi-finals 3-2 but played extremely well and played against a tough team. At the end of the day the 21 Falcons from all 3 teams played well and enjoyed playing with each other and the competition. All the players who registered for the tournament received a voucher for a free ticket to the Philadelphia Union game on September 5th. A group of the Falcons used the voucher and attended the game this past weekend. This was the first time some of the Falcons went to a Philadelphia Union game and seen the new stadium. Being apart of the 17,000+ fans in the stadium was an amazing feeling. Growing up in Philadelphia I always knew Philadelphians had a love for soccer but I was honestly blown away. It was nice to finally see soccer get the respect it deserves.



The best part of being a Falcon is the diversity the club brings. The Falcons come from all walks of life and from many different backgrounds but the love of soccer is what brings us all together. Whether you are gay or straight, male, female or transgender you are always welcome to join us at practice.

Ode to POZIAMers

We are all in this together.
no matter the weather
Just believe and you will see.
It feels good to be me.
Even with HIV

Some days are dark and others bright
but when I sign onto POZIAM I am alright
Talking with friends helps get it out
I can't just sit around and pout

I have learned to except myself for who I am
It's time to face the reality of this man
It time to wake up and look with my eyes.
My dreams are not infected...they reach the skies

My friends make me whole when I am feeling down.
I thank them for always being around
Without them I would of never of found myself
My online friends are worth more then any wealth

Robert

My ADAP Crisis Summit Experience

In a previous blog I spoke about becoming a board member of the ADAP Advocacy Association (aaa+). In July we held our ADAP Crisis Summit. I have to give props to Brandon Macsata for organizing this whole thing. He did a fantastic job. With over 2,000 people who are not getting their life saving medication this years summit was extremely important. The best part about the summit is that you meet people from all walks of life who are all about helping those with HIV/AIDS. The topics at the summit were all very interesting. They ranged from the waiting lists, housing, health care. With so much information I was glad to hear we (aaa+) provided a zip drive with all the slides from the speakers presentations. It was a great to take home and review anything I may of missed or didn’t understand.

I love going to these conferences because I learn so much and get to meet and hang with others who are in the same boat. When I hang out with other HIV+ people it reminds me that I am not alone. Sometimes when I am going through the motions of everyday life I forget that. Since I am the only HIV+ person I see on a regular basis the feeling of loneliness arrives often. My favorite part about the summit is when I actually meet fellow POZIAMer’s (members of POZIAM). I had a few awesome moments at the conference.

Dab Garner-Robert-Christopher Myron-Amy - Justin B Smith


On the first day, I was out side smoking a cigarette and was speaking with a few attendees, who just happen to be long term survivors. Some told me that they were members of POZIAM and that it nice it was to see a new generation step up and start advocating. They joked about retiring and passing the torch on to me. It was a very special experience for me. This coming from members of the AIDS community who have over 20+ years living and advocated for the disease and the people it affects. I was honored and humbled by this conversation.



The second day I walking into a breakout session that was called “Why Housing Matters”. The session included a speaker named Christine Campbellof Housing Works. I was blown away with what she said. She spoke with passion and purpose and it drew me to her. It was like she had some special powers that made me want to talk to her, want to hug her, and want to be her friend.. She spoke about how important it is for people with HIV/AIDS to have a roof over their head. Stable housing is important to stable health. They go hand and hand. She inspired me to want to get involved with the housing issues in the HIV/AIDS community.

The final day I got to hear Dr. Sonnabend particpate in a debate over starting meds early. It was truly an honor. This man has so much knowledge and it was something I will never forget. Going to the summit for the last 2 years I had the privilege to meet Dab Garner who truly is a warrior in this fight. Many know Dab from his work with Dab the AIDS Bear Project. I am sure if your on Facebook or POZIAM you have seen many of the photos of people with the little bear. He is one of my heroes and am honored to call him my friend. I left the conference with a bunch of new friends and many fond memories.

POZIAMers
ADAPs with Waiting Lists - (2,359 individuals, as of July 29, 2010)

Florida: 925 people

Georgia: 240 people
Hawaii: 14 people
Idaho: 29 people
Iowa: 111 people
Kentucky: 225 people
Louisiana: 219 people
Montana: 22 people
North Carolina: 186 people
Ohio: unknown number
South Carolina: 238 people
South Dakota: 23 people
Utah: 126 people


This is such a disgrace to me … I don’t understand how Americans are not receiving their life saving medications but the government can ship money and drugs to other countries and allow our own people to go with out. How can we tell people to go get tested and to start meds right away, Then when they do they get put on a waiting list.

Sports & Support - an entry from a HIV+ Athlete



You may of read in my previous blogs that I have been playing soccer for over 20 years. I have always enjoyed soccer since I was a 6 years old. So of course I have come down with a case of World Cup Fever. It is very exciting since the World Cup is every four years. With the arrival of David Beckham a few years ago to the L.A. Galaxy MLS team soccer in America has become more popular.

I currently play for Philadelphia Falcons Soccer Club. Since I have been so involved with POZIAM and my work in the HIV/AIDS community. I took time off from playing soccer and before I knew it 3 years have past. I started seeing my body change. I started seeing some roundness setting in since I stopped playing for a long time. So I decided to start practicing again in May of 2010 to get back in shape. I was never really into working out at the gym and playing soccer allowed me to work out and have fun at the same time. This past weekend my team and I participated in the Toronto International Pride Cup. I was so excited to play some competitive soccer. It was great hanging out with some old friends and making new ones. It was the first time I went to Toronto and had no idea what to expect from they city and the people who live there. The people were very friendly and the city was clean. The streets were packed with people all day and all night.

We drove 8 ½ hours to Toronto on Friday 6-18 and immediately went to a bar to watch a World Cup match. That evening was the opening party at Crew & Tangos. The opening party allows all the soccer players to meet each other in a social setting and to get our games schedule. We played a total of seven 60 minute games with two 30 minute halves. We had 4 games on Saturday. Of course our first game was the early game at 9:00am and our second game was right after that one and started at 10:30am. Then we broke for a lunch break and had our third game at 2:15pm and our fourth game right after that at 3:30pm. Well I must say by the end of the first day I was reminded that I was getting older, how out of shape I was and that I need to quit smoking. We were placed fourth at the end of day one with 2 wins and 2 losses. Saturday evening after the games there was a BBQ for the players at Voglie. We had a great time socializing and comparing notes about the days games. Now we played four hours of soccer Saturday in some extreme heat and I think we were all hurting. Since we were placed fourth we had the early game on Sunday at 9:30am. We won that game and then played again at 11:30am. We lost that game and played our third game for the bronze medal at 12:30pm. The score ended up in a tie so we went into shootouts. Which are penalty kicks, best out of 5 wins the game. Our goalie made two stunning saves and we ended up winning 4-3 and took home the bronze medal.

During one of the final games I was fouled and my face slammed against the ground hard. I got up and a player on the other team said “Hey man your bleeding “. Then the referee said that I wasn’t bleeding and then a teammate said that I was bleeding. So I immediately took a sub and went to check out my face and see what was really going on. I ended up only noticing an abrasion on my cheek. Directly after i heard your bleeding I had all these thoughts go through my head.I know I am very open about living with HIV and I think most of my teammates know about my status. But since I took three years off from playing soccer a lot of new players joined my team.

Since I haven’t been around the past few years, I don’t really know these guys off the pitch. I don’t know their views or if their educated on the topic of HIV/AIDS. I just didn’t want to make my teammates feel uncomfortable in anyway. I didn’t hide my status at all. I remember saying “I have to remember to take my meds” while on the sidelines a few times. If people asked me what I did for a living I told them about POZIAM. I love being open about it because when people have questions they come to me. I have had teammates email me or pull me aside and ask me questions about HIV in the past and I love being able to help educate friends or offer some guidience. When this happens it allows to feel I have a purpose. When I returned home I also realized that besides the abrasion on my cheek I also had a black eye. I look like I was in a bar brawl , my body aches and have a bad case of sunburn but it was worth it in the end. I had a great time and recommend visiting Toronto.

I love going to these tournaments because it allows me to focus on something else and not living with HIV. My teammates have become a brotherhood of support for me and I recommend joining a sports team. I believe it is a key part of me thriving with HIV.

HIV+ Athletes & Disclosure
In most countries there is an official policy of non-disclosure of your HIV status. Sports participants are not under any obligation to reveal their HIV status, although they are strongly discouraged from participating in sports such as wrestling and boxing for obvious reasons. The result of this policy of non-disclosure is that all injuries on the sports field are treated as if the injured person could be HIV+. All injured athletes who have bleeding wounds are sent off the field until they have been treated and the bleeding has stopped.

Transmission in Sports Play
The transmission of HIV can take place when an HIV+ person is injured, and blood from the infected person enters the bloodstream of the uninfected person through a cut, a lesion or an open wound or mucous membrane such as the eye or the mouth. Although HIV transmission is technically possible in this manner, experts around the world agree that the chances are extremely remote. To my knowledge there have been no documented cases of HIV being transmitted during participation in sport, so it is reasonable to assume that transmission in this manner is not likely to occur. Sports can be divided into two types: non-contact sports and contact sports.

Non-contact sports:
Non-contact sports includes many different kinds of exercise where there is no direct physical contact between participants during the normal course of the sport. These would include sports such as tennis, baseball, aerobics golf, cycling, running, canoeing, cricket, softball and volleyball. Transmission of HIV infection in the normal course of these sports is extremely remote.

Contact sports:
These can be divided into low contact and high contact sports. A sport like boxing would classify as a high contact sport and soccer as a low contact sport(direct contact is not supposed to take place, but frequently does) Other contact sports would be rugby, wrestling, karate and judo.

My Stages of Pride

So this month is Pride Month on TheBody.com and after thinking about the topic I realized that I went through many stages of Pride in my 31 years.

  Stage 1. No Pride
Like many young gay men, I was teased in school all the time. I was called fag, faggot, queer and so on. So I always viewed being gay as a negative thing. Something people wouldn’t accept. It was something I thought I couldn’t accept either. I came out to my family at the age of 17. I just graduated high school and thought that I had to hide my sexuality due to my catholic school education. I was taught that being gay was a sin and I was going to hell. So I felt ashamed and hated being gay and even worse I hated being me. My parents accepted and loved me but asked that I wasn’t so open about it to others. I understood that my parents grew up and experienced life in different times. They asked me to be myself but not advertise it. I respected that because they thought they were protecting me and in a way they were. People can be mean. So I didn’t have any pride in being gay right away. There were no gay role models to look up to. I do remember watching Ellen (These Friends of Mine) on television and seeing her character come out as a lesbian shortly after that the show was canceled. I swore I would never be that gay guy that would have a rainbow sticker on his car, or attend a Gay Pride event. I thought these events and parades we all about flaunting your sexuality. I was too ashamed of who I was to do that.

Stage 2. Scoring some Pride
In 2002 I was desperate for real friends. Most of the people I met at bars were never really interested in friendship. I quickly discovered it was usually all about sex. I was in a relationship for a long time and shut out most of my old friends at that time in my life. I then discovered something that would change the course of my life completely. I was online one day and searched Gay Soccer teams. The search results brought up the Philadelphia Falcons a gay soccer team in Philly. I was so excited to know that I wasn’t the only gay guy who loved soccer. I remember driving to my first practice not knowing what to expect. I arrived at the fields and had people introduce themselves to me right away. They asked “ What position do you play ?” and “How long have you been playing ?” I instantly had a new circle of friends by the end of the practice. These people were friends & teammates but they also turned into a brotherhood and sisterhood of support for me. They let me see that there was no reason to hide my sexuality. No reason to not be me. We even traveled as friends and teammates to San Francisco and then Copenhagen, Denmark to play in the IGLFA (International Gay & Lesbian Futbol Association) tournaments together. I was shocked to discover that so many countries sent teams to these tournaments. My team wasn’t just about playing soccer but they also participated in community events, such as Pride and Outfest. I remember going to my first Pride event with the team. It was something I never experienced before. We set up a table with our clubs info and recruited new teammates. It felt so good to be so honest for the first time. I don’t even think my teammates knew how big of a deal it was for me to be there. I now had gay friends they were truly my friends. For the first time I saw being gay as a positive thing.

Stage 3. I got Pride
Now I see gay pride in a whole new light. At the age of 31 I see life with a new pair of glasses. After receiving my HIV diagnosis in 2001 I lived in a denial stage for 5 years. One day I just said “screw it” I can only be the best me that I can be. This not only shifted my thoughts on my HIV status but also my thoughts about being gay. I discovered that pride is a lot more then just letting the world now your gay. It is about being proud of who you are and accepting your sexuality. The purpose of the Pride movement is to remove the feelings of shame or fear some have about their sexuality or gender identity. It is an event that brings the gay community together to discuss important issues like Gay Marriage or HIV/AIDS and find out about local events happening in the city. It shows those who attend that they are not alone. I haven’t been to a Pride event in a few years but my work in the HIV/AIDS community will change that. I have already come out of about my sexuality and HIV status publicly on Facebook,Myspace,Twitter and POZIAM. The response from family and friends have been very supportive.

Stigma Sucks - Reality Check

 Today I am going to blog about a situation that happened on a reality   show called Big Brother in Germany. I was totally shocked about this when I read it. I personally love Big Brother. It is my favorite reality show, Here is a little bit about the show for people who are not familiar with it. Big Brother challenges a group of strangers (houseguests) to live under one roof. They're cut off from the outside world, while cameras catch their every move 24 hours a day, for 3 months, all for the chance at winning $500,000.




Now to the story I wanted to talk about. The German version of the reality show Big Brother has seen the early exit of one contestant, Horst, a 41 year old tattoo artist from Otzberg, after a gay couple, Carlos and Harald, entered the house.

Saying he didn't want to have to deal with living with people who had a serious medical condition (both Carlos and Harald are HIV positive), Horst told fellow contestants that it was not an HIV issue, and that he would have felt the same and come to the same decision for any serious medical condition, such as cancer.

Fellow houseguests did attempt to get Horst to change his mind and stay but the tattoo artist made it clear that he had only come into the Big Brother house to have fun, and that the addition of the HIV-positive couple, Carlos and Harald, had acted to make it a much more serious issue.

What are your thoughts on the way this houseguest reacted? Do we give him a pass because he would've supposedly left the show if it was any other illness, like cancer?

I think it just shows how much the world still need to be educated. As a tattoo artist you would assume that he was educated about HIV. I am hoping this doesn't stop CBS and Big Brother's producers from casting more HIV-positive people in the future.

Social Security - HIV PLUS Magazine Article

A new generation is carving out a niche on the Net so that HIVers can find a safe, casual atmosphere to connect, get informed, and evolve with their diagnosis at their own pace. Twitter. YouTube. Facebook. MySpace. Podcasts. Skype. To many people, these names might sound like a foreign tongue.

But a new generation of HIVers and activists is not only fluent in the language of social media and digital communication but also using it more than ever before to inform, connect with, and support their peers. While 20 years ago a person with HIV had to physically volunteer at an AIDS service organization, attend a support group, or join an activist organization like ACT UP to meet others living with the virus, HIVers today can simply plop down in front of their computers and find a supportive, thriving community right at their fingertips.

What most people do when they’ve been diagnosed is to jump onto Google and start trying to find as much information as they can,” says Philadelphian Robert Breining about the role the Internet plays in most HIVers’ lives. “But people want more than all that medical information. They want to talk with someone like themselves -- who is feeling the same pain and experiencing the same feelings. So I started thinking, Wouldn’t it be great if there was a place like Facebook or MySpace for HIV-positive people where they could do all of that?”

And more and more, it’s the everyday person, like 30-year-old Breining -- and not big corporate entities -- who is creating cross sections of socializing and information sharing for others just like themselves.

In October 2007, Breining launched POZIAM, a free website where users post profiles and photos, send personalized notes, use online chat, create their own blogs, and access message boards. Breining expanded the site a few months later to include a weekly Internet radio broadcast, which today he cohosts with fellow HIVers Jeromy Dunn and former Project Runway star Jack Mackenroth.

Other free websites -- like BeOneCity.com, launched in 2008, and SINMen.net, a networking website created in 2009 by Bryan Levinson, the founder of the global organization Strength in Numbers, similarly provide numerous Facebook-like interactive functions to help HIVers connect with each other. But social networking sites are just one of the myriad ways HIVers are using state-of-the art digital technology to connect to and communicate with each other.

For example, Sherri Lewis, better known as Sherri Beachfront of the ’80s pop band Get Wet, has created a library of dozens of her Straight Girl in a Queer World podcasts. [Lewis’s collection is hosted by Here! Networks, which is part of Here Media, the parent company of HIV Plus.] She says her aim was to look beyond the clinical aspects of HIV disease to “how to live life with HIV” through an entertainment talk show that includes red-carpet events, celebrity guests, and other HIV-positive people. Then, there is 21-year-old Augusta, Ga., political science student Johnathan Shaw, who has a YouTube channel called “Positively Johnathan,” where he posts a video blog, or “vlog,” about his first year of living with HIV. Similarly, 30-year-old Laurel, Md., HIVer Justin B. Terry-Smith maintains a mixed-media blog called “Justin’s HIV Journal,” which addresses a variety of social and political issues in addition to his life with HIV.

Even AIDS service organizations are embracing digital media in new and unexpected ways. While virtually every mid- to large-size ASO has a dedicated website or even multiple sites for specific agency programs or fund-raisers, the Los Angeles Gay and Lesbian Center in 2008 began charting new online territory with its ongoing Internet-based soap opera, In the Moment. The series “webisodes” (a new batch of which began rolling out in February) provide HIV-prevention and harm-reduction messages by following a group of young men as they deal with issues like HIV and STDs, safer sex, drug abuse, sex addiction, and infidelity, among others.

The series allows the Los Angeles agency to reach a generation of gay men who are significantly more likely to spend their free time online than attending the agency’s in-person support groups and other programs, says Susan Cohen, director of the center’s Health Education and Prevention department. “The bottom line,” she says, “is that we need to access the community where it is -- and that’s online.”

But while HIV-positive bloggers, vloggers, and social-networking site creators are also keenly aware of the ever-increasing reach of digital media, particularly among youth and young adults, the reasons many choose to begin their online endeavors are often far more personal than practical.

“I actually find it’s much easier to deal with my own HIV by being open about it. It’s cathartic,” says Shaw, who in addition to launching his YouTube vlog in March 2009 just three months after his diagnosis also disclosed his serostatus on Facebook only a week after he learned he was HIV-positive. “And if my story helps others too, then all the better.”

Terry-Smith says he began his blog mostly as a way to give HIVers like himself a voice in the digital realm. “I looked around and I didn’t see any young African-American gay men reaching out online. No one else was doing this,” he explains.

For Breining, a major goal of his website and radio program, he says, is to show other HIVers that it’s possible to live a long, healthy, and productive life with the disease. “I want to give people hope,” he states simply. “I want them to see that it’s not all gloom and doom, sickness and death.”

Many of these hopeful messages are aimed specifically at newly diagnosed HIVers, who tend to join digital communities and follow bloggers and vloggers in large numbers because they’re able to share as much -- and, perhaps more important, as little -- personal information about themselves as they choose online.

“A lot of people are uncomfortable or really afraid to have someone they know find out that they’re HIV-positive, but they’re still looking for support or friendship or just someone who understands what they’re going through,” explains Breining, who allows POZIAM users to shield their identities. “Now they can go online and share as much or as little about themselves and still get what they need.”

But the relative anonymity of cyberspace also has a significant downside -- the ability for social media users, even onetime visitors to a site, to leave offensive public comments. That very situation almost derailed Terry-Smith’s online video blog, “Justin’s HIV Journal,” shortly after his very first entry.

“The first comment I got was horrible,” Terry-Smith recalls. “A guy basically said, ‘So you got poked by a dirty dick. So what?’ I almost took the video down because I thought those were the only kinds of comments I was going to get. But then, maybe two minutes later, I got a comment from someone who loved the blog and planned to keep following it. Then I got another comment like that, then another.”

Shaw has also been the target of disparaging feedback. “Some people have suggested I’m doing this to try to become famous,” he says with a laugh. But by and large, he notes, the reaction has been complimentary. And sometimes it’s downright astonishing.

“I had gotten an e-mail from this guy who was really depressed since he had gotten HIV and was actually thinking of taking his life,” Shaw recalls. “But he said he found my blog and connected with my message that you can live a full life with HIV and you don’t need to be treated any differently than anyone else. He said that gave him a whole new perspective and that he’s now committed to making his life better. That made me feel really good, like I’m truly making a difference.”